The Ebb

The last week or so has seen some fairly "aggressive public displays of communication" on my part. I stepped forcefully into a whirlwind of chaos, all because one morning at work I imagined up a story about a Fox and the Forest. Well, not _all_ because. _In part_ because.

It’s hard sometimes to know when to draw the line. When to respond, when to apologise, when to keep the six-gun blazing.

The Internet Never Forgets it was remarked to me recently. It’s true. Our lives are immeasurably changed by what people can find out, and the Internet makes that finding out quite a bit easier. Easier than a day when crows and pigeons were the preferred methods of communication.

It’s almost two months since I began building ATS. In that span of time I’ve had almost 100% concentration and energy on the go. Last night, after such a crazy week, I almost lost the vision. No. I did lose it. For a moment. I sat at the desk wondering. The tasks are there, I know what needs to happen. It’s just .. it is a long road.

Sounds like I’m whining, I know. Or sympathy begging. That’s not what this is.

I’m not certain what will happen in the next few weeks, months, and the years to come in the world of Clarion. Indeed, maybe in ten years I’ll be writing novels or making computer games. But for now, this is where I am. Does the vision I have for the Community of Clarion bear any merit? Hey, it’s only been a week or so. Some people need time. Others will never come around. Still more prefer to use the community when it suits, and build their own place.

So that’s what I’m going to do. Build my own place. I’m not going to stop trying hard to help unite a community. It won’t happen in a week. And i’d be a bigger fool than usual to think so. That particular vision will take time.

What I can do is forge ahead with the plans for ATS. There is a mountain of work to be done, people to cooerce, bands to book (ha ha), and software to write.

Stopping the melodrama now. Ha. Till next time,